In this unflinchingly honest memoir, celebrated editor and writer Diana Athill recounts the story of her friend, an Egyptian writer she calls Didi, who came to live with her in London. Their lives became deeply intertwined until his tragic suicide. Athill fearlessly examines their complex bond, her role in his life, and the overwhelming grief that followed. The book is a raw and powerful meditation on love, mental illness, friendship, and the responsibilities we have towards one another, offering a profound look at the messiness of human connection and loss.